yay. im down with flu again.. hahaha.

im going back bp tmr. whee. *excited* to mit evonnn!! hiak hiak hiak. n reina too!!! =))) <3

pathetically. hahaha. i feel so bored at home. n i need money too. urgh.. i shall go find a job SOON! yes, i will hmm.

i love watching kim san soon and save da last dance for miie lately.. da storylines attract miie. n da main lead actors too. hahaha.

its so boring nowadaes. *BOING* feel lyk going out. but nobodi wans to date miie. =((

mabe i sud go find a job tmr???

ahh. im so boring. dere's nothing for miie to do.. date miie out!! hahaha. i shall go find a job after teacher's day.. yepp. dats it. =)))

whee. finally exams are over. HAHAHA!!!

today's itr was fine. at least its da only paper which i can continue writing for lyk 1 n a half hr?? hahaha. i shall not talk about bsta. it will only make miie feel so angry bout myself. ahh. i totali hated myself ytd!! hmm. on happy thoughts. when i finished my paper todae n when da time was left with only 10 mins. i was smiling to myself. HAHAHA!! hiak hiak hiak.. EXAMS ARE OVER~~~

well.its not going to be much of a holiday for miie. im going to find a job. hehh. guess my mum is super duper happy when i told her im going to find a job during the holidays..

well, i need money. for my own. and also to help in giving money to my daddy and mummy. and i also need to clock 40 hrs of work for next sem. is dat it?? guess so. though i dono whether i can cope while working and studying. but somehow. i have to do it. YUPP! i will do it.

on my way to school today. i have been thinking [obviously i din studied on my way to school] alot.. i wondered why did i ever choose to come to a poly when i can enter a jc? now i have a HUGE burden. dats da school fees. okae. da burden is on miie. because i want da burden to be on miie. i dowan it to fall on my parents.. they are getting old. and sometimes it really hurts miie to c how my dad worked so hard for da family. especially with da huge burden set by miie. well, im going to be in huge debt when i graduated from poly. guess i better start working and save money NOW! im going to be a you yong de ren! yay. dats it. dats da spirit! whee~~~

seriously, i have no mood to study bsta.. it just freaks miie out.

im looking forward to this fri at 4pm. because exams would end by then. and i would be free.=))

oh, by the way, dere's a study trip to las vegas. im fearing it...

okay. im off to study bsta and itr. JIAYOU JIAYOU~~

"when a girl give a slice of tiramisu to a guy, it stands for 'pick me up'. then if the guy gives u a cappucino in return, it means he likes u too."

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋

感谢你让我想个清楚

因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱

我不需要谁温柔安抚

请放心我很快能恢复

找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭

我不要装可怜无辜

挡住你的路挡不住你追逐

不准哭

我更应该微笑祝福

祝你找到对的幸福

如果我消失不见

你在乎不在乎

别含含糊糊我很在乎

因为爱你所以我选另外一条路

离开是我的最後让步

爱情就到这里结束

我们不得不不得不屈服

只能笑

不准哭

我不要装可怜无辜

挡住你的路挡不住你追逐

不准哭

我学不会微笑祝福

祝你找到

祝你找到对的幸福

i guess im just so insignificant in people's lives..

okae.. im editing my notes for cip now so im not exactly slacking..

hmm. i packed my table at my cupboards just now. saw lots of photos i used to take when im in primary school n sec school. n i saw BP's year book too. awwwww... suddenly i missed all da tchers n all my friends. =((( i carn wait to go back during teachers' day either!!! yay...

n looking at da photos. i realised I CHANGED ALOT sia.. its really a big difference of how i looked lyk in da past as compared to now..hmm. well, is it good or bad? will people not recognise miie? hmm. at least for now. people still recognise miie? peishan, my pri n sec sku mates, my juniors, my sec 4 classmates?? hmm. so im still da old siewfong aft all. =)))

``i hate people who lies to miie

well, hopefully. hahaha. hope i can passed my micro exam. i MUST pass!! woohoo...

i bought my 3 mths of contacts n one bottle of solution. n guess wat? i used my OWN money to buy it ehh. it cost miie $34. hahaha. shall c whether my mum wud give miie back my money? [from my own atm card] well. expected. haa.

no l.o.g is online. except shirle. guess she's youtube-ing? everbodi studying?? n yeeshan is going on hiatus.. ahh. i donhave da mood to study todae. hahaha. though i went home early. haa. never mind. i wud be very very hardworking tmr!! jiayou jiayou!! =)

finally, reina msged miie todae. im so happy to receive her sms!!im glad dat she's okay n nth had happened aft all. well. haa. reina wud noe wat im talking about. hahaha.must be brave with ur dar! don care bout ur mummy or daddy. you se me shi wo bang ni men kang!!! hopefully, its not dat heavy lar. haa. never mind, im crapping.

hey, evonnn. i miss u too. lets go back on tcher's dae okae?? den i can mit u too. =)if not. we can mit one dae when u r free den.=))

HAPPY BURFDAE KUEK!!!

``together we shall walk hand in hand .=)))

hahaha. im so happy. i realise my 2nd bro is such a nice guy. haa. he bought a chicken drumstick ytd. n when he reached home , he saw mie, n he actually said dat he wanted to buy for mie but he tot i wun be home so early, so he din buy it. well, n guess wat he did. he actually shared his drumstick wih mie!! so nice ryt. so nan de. he tore off pieces of chicken n handed it to mie. in da past, he die oso wun share with mie. haa. guess dat he's going ns soon, so he's being good to us?? haa. nono. i shall say dat he's really nice in nature la. hahaha.n he actually helped mie buy i zhou kan today. [i have to give him money of course]. yupp. im happy. =)))

AND!!! im finishing my writing of notes for micro. left with oligopoly. den aft dat i shall continue wih cip. den if i have da mood i shall do abit bsta.. ahh. i hate bsta da most. i carn understand dose things being taught. n dere's no one hu can help mie clear my doubts.. sob sob.. oh ya. my bro actually lend mie his econs notes for market structures. haa. nice nice. im taking a break now. having my lunch now too. hahaha.

and and and. kian min!! if u r ever reading dis. u din tag mie har. u say u wud tag mie ytd. ahh. *abish* i angry le. hahaha. shall not tok to u. ha.

i shall go jiayou n study le. JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

``i miss you. =)

im sooooo much beta aft resting at home for lyk 3 daes? haa. i must really study now. i want to do well for my firx exam in poly. yupp. i shall go study micro aft logging off. i promised i will. i did abit of itr ytd. n im proud of myself, even though i oni wrote notes. haa. well, i did study. wee wee, i read ur blog. so touched dat u mentioned mie. i guess tutorial is boring without mie ryt?? retards. i love retards. =)) i want to mit u all soon. lets go out n study together kaex?? hmm. i wan to bully wee wee. KANGKONG!! wahha. i have nth to do with ah ting okae, nth to do with jt yeo oso. please. he's my senior... ahh. okae.. hmm.n reina.. what happened? u still haven call mie to tell mie everything. everytime u online, u carn tok to mie. i smsed u, dere's no reply too. r u okae? at least tell mie dat u r okae, i hope u r reading dis. i went to ur blog.. but dere's nth dere? n wat happened to ur blog n u n his blog? i wan to noe wat happened? ixit really over? if you need comfort, come find mie okae. i wud be ur rubbish bin, i wud lend u my shoulders if u wan to cry. just don leave mie feeling lost bout wats going on.. get in touch with mie soon okae??? im still waiting for ur call. =) hmm. hahaha. on happy thoughts. haa. im happy. =))) wahha.

oh ya. i want to clear tings up. kuek's burfdae is on 18th august. not 20th august. its my mistake. =) thanks lucy's fans!

whoo! kuekie's burfdae is coming. its on 20th aug!! wahh. happy early burfdae.. yay.. haa. anw, da individualised timetable is out. hmm. da timetable scares mie. seriously..

happy national day!!national day is a gud dae.haa. anw, i went for national dae todae with my family. we left house at ard 1 plus. my dad drove us to paya lebar for lunch, den parked his bus dere so dat we don nid to take mrt home. dats nice=) so we took mrt to kallang. n omg. i c alot of people lar. all wearing red walking to da bus service area[ im wearing red too]. haa. den took da bus to kallang stadium. while reaching, saw alo of ah bing ges. remind mie of shinya. i tink he's a nsf somehow. hmm. den i was even tinking dat i myt c him. [well, i din] den walked to da stadium, got my goodie bag, walked somemore den finally got seated. while going to our seats. got one auntie keep on pushing mie lar. idiotic. so gan jiong. go in early oso sit dere to tan. so gan jiong for wat. hmm. never mind. i lyk da goodie bag. da bag is nice.haa. da show is quite boring lar. honestly. i don enjoy da show. but i enjoyed da choir's performance. haa.n da fireworks!!! omg. it was super nice. i took 3 videos of da fireworks. it was really super super nice!! den when it ended. dere was jam again lar. everybodi was squeezing here n dere. we left our seat a ard 8.25. den when we finally reached kallang mrt. it was ard 9.40. omg. we actually got squeezed among da jam for lyk one hr?? finally reached paya lebar. we were super hungry. so we ate supper. haa. den went home. home sweet home. =))) anw, my mum bought mie a shorts todae. sweet .=)) now i got 2 shorts. wahha.. well, now im supposedly to be heading towards j8. but got ps again. haa. never mind. i wanted to ps at firx. but in da end got ps. ahh. im lame now. i got kicked by some idiotic person ytd. god bless dat whoever person who kicked mie. =). so. i don tink i can go for tmr's sw again. well, its da last lesson. but im lame so i carn dance if not i will be even lamer. so i have to pon. its not dat i WANT to pon. its i HAVE to pon. okae.. don even noe whether i sud go bsta anort.. ahh. shall c my leg..

i din ps anebodi!! ahh. i promised my mum to go out with her todae cox she's buying red tee for mie for tmr's ndp. sob sob. anw, i was reading vic's blog just now. so he's studying in RP!! omg. so near to my house ehh. i shall go crash rp one dae. hahaha. anw. its settled with kian min le. thur we r going j8 swensen's. whee. n i have been askd to invite jiing n xavier along [just bcox i wasn dere for discussion at nyt online] wat da.. jiting i don mind. but xavier.. er..ya. i wasn in a gud mood ytd nyt. so er.. shall not elaborat anein bout dat. yupp. it will oni affect my mood once again. tmr is huiying's burdae!! i shall wish u HAPPY BURDAE!! though she wun be seeing dis lar. but still, i wan to sae happy burfdae.haa. i must study for my exams now. i must. i shall go study my micro aft i log off. i will n i must! YUPP! oh ya. just wana sae jiayou to apple for tmr's ndp. i had xperienced it b4. n is kinda fun n prideful, but can be abit stressed [for mie]. haa. yup. jiayou wo.. i wud be dere too.haa.

todae is da slackest day ever!!went to sku at 1130am went for ocom. while lao kok kok was just talking awae bout bstat n it din help mie at all.. never mind. n we got back ur ocom test. carn believe i actually passed.. weirdo.. den af ocom went for bstat revision lecture. wat da.. da lecturer oni tell us da forma of da exam. den dats da end of the lecture!! it was oni lyk 15 mins??? wahh. da ever shortest lecture.. haa. den went bpp eat, den go weiqian's hse watched "she's da man". its quite farni.haa. is adapted from twelfth nyt. yupp, so its farni.haa. tmr i don have to go sku. wed oso. but wed i have to go watch ndp with my family.haa. its going to be fun, but lots of ppl lar.. don lyk it.haa. thurs. we r planning to go out wih kian min, my son! haa. n i managed to jio sam along.. wahha. budden mux ask kian min to find another guy along. if no he very sad. oni one guy. i feel sad for him lar.. haa. he said he's going to treat mie.. hmm. though im looking forward to it, but i feel bad lar. cox aft all he's our senior.. n im lyk treating him lyk dat.. ops. but he's my son.. so ..er... haa. never mind. as long as in psp i respect him can le.!while outside psp. im going to bully him!!! wahha. anw, weiqian, take note. jt yeo doesn fit all my criterias. he doesn noe how o sing n dance. n i should add in another criteria. ``doesn get into trouble so easily.`` wahha. now i win =)

1. must be taller than mie

2. must be older than mie

3. funny

4. sings well

5. can dance!

6. can play bass.

7. cares for mie. =)

8. as for looks, i lyk it can le. =)))

guess wat r da criterias for.hahaha. =p

whee. went for NP idol ytd. n finally i get to mit up with REINA! =))) haa. she cam my house to change her clothes. den went to bpp with her to buy food n my hp strap.=) aft dat, we took 184 to np, n weiqian board da bus at pending. so we met..haa we went to convention n reina cudn't contact her fren to get our tix. so i called jiting to help us find charlene. haa. he had to walk in n out twice. so sorry. haa. saw hanyang n zhan hong. i din noe hanyang smokes lar. is bad. he still admits dat he smoke. smoking is bad. don smoke okae.. dose hu smoke r ugly. get it? oh ya. saw wee wee too. got bullied by dem again. URGHH.. never mind. np idol was nice. i lyk charlene n wee jian. deir singing very nice!!! haa. n i voted for them. charlene din get fix , she got 3rd. datx fine. haa. n wee jian got firx!!! whee. haa. den went home at 11pm reach my house at 12mn. reina dad came to fetch her.haa. actuali is i asked reina to ask her dad to fetch her. cox its lyk 12mn. i dn fang xin let her go home alone. yupp. =) haa. i wan to eat!haa

junyang's concert was a success.=) im in tix collection.its fun.haa. n i hate dat bitch. he actually sacked ppl just lyk dat?? psp peeps r my peeps now. we have all undergone da hardship of making a success concert together n now u r sacking dem. u will get ur desserts bitch.. anw, went home at ard 9 plus. i waited at da busstop alone. i feel so lonely. n dere was an idiotic se beh beh bside siting bside mie. arh. i hate i. i hate da way he looked at mie. i stared at him. but he continue giving his se mi mi smile. he made wan to cry. i feel so helpless. n i actually waited for my bus lyk ard half an hr with da se beh beh dere. arhh... haix. se beh behs. you all must o find something to do okae. stop lingering ard in public n looing at others. get a life! a decent life a least. n so went hme. n i feel really sick while on da bus. i feel so tired. i feel lyk stopping da days in my life. i hope i can freeze in dat moment. haa.anw. i passed my bsta test.=)))

im feeling sad.i don feel happy lyk wat i used to be recently.i have da urge to cry when im alone.at nyt.i feel so stress. i have been going through so much lately dat i feel dat im not myself anemore. my life is so complicated. i wan a simple life. i have been sleeping late and i feel sick n tired. i don feel lyk going sku. i just wan to stay at home.on my bed. n my life is painted with false hopes. all im receving now are all false hopes. i dono wat is true to mie. i carn seem to c wat is really going on. i feel lyk im living in a totally imaginary world set up by others. sometimes i feel im so blissed but soon after dat i feel rejected. i carn find my own true feelings. i lyk it when you treat mie well, i lyk it when you cared for mie. but i don lyk it when all dis seem so false to mie. i really don. i need a true feeling dat is given by you. i feel so lost. i really do. i carn stop thinking, i have been wondering wats wrong lately. but i carn figure it out. i want to tell people how i feel. but i dono how to say it out. i need someone to cheer mie up. i hope its u. n i cried last nyt. i dono y..

haa.wonder y i started dis entry with serchuan??cox i met him todae!!he's a super funny guy.haa.when i was waiting for bus home.i saw my bus came.den i waited for another bus to drove off b4 boarding my bus.when i got on da bus.i receive one msg from serchuan.haa.he said "welcome on board this bus". im shocked, i quickly loked ard da bus but i still din c him. so i replied. "erm, r u on my bus?". den i continue looking for him.i saw one guy which i tot was him den. meanwhile i was GL-ed by serchuan.he actually replied mie "its not ur bus.. is a public transport.." -.-"' den i replied him by asking where is he. meanwhile, i was sort of falling asleep.den suddenly, one guy wave his hands infront of my face.i got a shocked.n i realised its SERCHUAN!!wahha.he very funny lo.he to im on da bus he's on when im not.diao.haa.den i gave him a ?? look.den he said ,"oh, im in da bus infront of u. hee" stupid lar him.make him scared dat i tot i actually CARN c him when he said im on da same bus as him..den he alighted at da busstop where some sec sku is dere.erm..ha..nev mind.he still asked miie y i board at da condo area dere.haa.ya. datx da farni ting when i went home.i noe its not farni.erm.nevermind.

anw. i LOVE da clubhouse.i just feel so comfortable in dere.even feel lyk sleeping in dere n not leaving.haa.i took a photo of my son n ivan i tink.my son owaes tou ting our conversation [or r we speaking too loudly?] den he still asked miie n sam to stay in clubhouse until 8???nonono.i wan to watch my superband de.=))) next time when dere is nth else mabe i wud stay. haa.unless u treat miie swensens=))[ im still waiting for jiting, even though my son rejected u.] i wan to complain!!!weiqian n sam owaes bully miie in psp lar!!!todae my son saw how dey bully miie. dey bully miie twice!!!at atrium n in clubhouse. i feel so helpless. but my son bang wo chu qi!even though i dono wat he said either.but how can da both of dem bully miie whn im having my disaster???er..ytd i wanted to ask jiting sth de.but my disaster was too painful dat i forgot wat i wanted to ask him.he todae ask miie i sick ixit den i say i come dat thing.den he still ask miie. "oh, u come dat one ixit? da yi ma ixit?" wahh.how can i discuss dis with a guy?i don even discuss dis with my dad lar.haa.he mux have seen how sick i m todae dat i can even fgt wat to ask him.i can mit reina dis fri lo!!!yay.can c her finally.=)))w r going for da np idol tgether.yay!!