Siew

Friday, December 28, 2007

♥Siew came & went off @[[__2:50 PM__]]

2007 to 2008

this is gona be a long entry
dont read it if u dont want to
gosh
time really flies
4 more days and its a brand new year
im not even mentally prepared
another poly year gone
gawd
and im getting older and older
sigh
im actually amazed dat i couldn't really remb what happened throughout this year
no, its not emoing time
its time to reflect my days of 2007
all i can say
2007 is not a lucky year for me
lots and lots of down times
things that i remembered are not happy memories

firstly, theRETARDS

we faced so many problems

having to deal with people we are unhappy with

dealing with sch work, exams, projects, and friendship

it was a hard time

i almost couldn't see da smiling faces of theRETARDS which they had during year1

instead wat i saw were frowning faces

we din laugh like how we used to

we din joke like how we used to

it was a total change

we even quarrelled because of some stupid matter

that i brought up

i was so sad and angry at dat time

i tot theRETARDS would fall

but we din

i felt so stupid bringing up such a stupid topic then

but now

i realised

dere's obstacles to go through in a friendship

im glad dat theRETARDS din fall

im glad theRETARDS are so strong

so strong dat we can still crap like nobody's business

so strong dat i don't mind waiting for them everytime

so strong dat it warms my heart everytime i hear wee's retarded jokes, dit's laughter and qian's randomness

so strong dat we know wat each other are thinking

smiling at da times we had

how we can laugh so hard just over someone's wrong usage of words and action

how we can crap so much even over dinner

how we can actually passed this stupid year2 supporting each other

how we forgive each other so easily

how we waited for each other every morning even though we were late for lessons

so many things that we have done for each other

copying notes when one is not in lecture

preparing surprises and baking cookies for birthdays

just to see each other smiles

isn't it lovely?

another year with theRETARDS

im happy =]

secondly, reina
first i have to say sorry
sorry for not putting myself into ur shoes
sorry for thinking dat u are too busy for me
both of us hardly meet each other since reina got busy with her A's
and this is really hard for me
because im afraid of telling her my problems
im afraid it might burden her further
dats when im so wrong
so wrong dat
i even tot this friendship would break
i tot
one day i might stop myself from contacting her
sigh
but now
im sure everything its okay
we are still as crappy as last time
how we can crap so much just because i said u need to book me through my system
how i continue to tell her my secrets
how i continue to tell her gossips
how i always put her as da first person to turn to whenever im angry, sad and happy
how she always tell me when things are going wrong for her
how we make sure dat da rubbish bin would always be dere for each other
how im sure dat we would be besties till we are old
i hope this can continue and da list would be never ending
=]

thirdly, loggies

everyone has their own life now

different schs, different courses, different classes

i admit

i have not been attending gatherings for loggies

im sorry very sorry

sigh

i hope loggies

would go on and on and on

yeeshan, weiqian, huiying, xueting, yeeshian, shuxian and shirley

i wont forget how u guys brought me through sec3 and 4

how we always hang out at lot one after sch

how u guys always plan for each other's birthdays

how u guys are always so happy upon seeing each other

fourthly, evon
sch has started for u
everytime i visit ur blog
its always so emo
but i do see happy times too
i wana see u be happy
smile more
u are pretty when u smile
so smile more~
if life is really too hard
take a break
and continue walking down da path
do not over stress urself too much
health is important too!
do take care of urself
because i still wana see u tagging my blog
i still wana see u blogging bout happy moments in ur life
all da pretty pictures that u took
=]

im suddenly tot bout something very random

maple xD

u might think dat

its just a game =.=

oh wells

to me now

its more than just a game

its how i make more friends whom i can crap so much with

in virtual life

i still remb da first time i play maple

i was a complete noob

i got lost in da game

and had to ask reina to rescue me

i still remb da first time i joined her guild

and i got addicted to playing maple

how i start making friends in game

how my maple life is so exciting

with friends i can play and venture ard with

but it doesnt last dat long

problems start to surface when attitudes are getting bad

how we got lost in solving da problem

how our own feelings got into us

and so

da once happy guild was disbanded

how me and reina felt so guilty

how i actually cried over a game

how we actually felt so lost in not knowing how to solve da problem

how we tried so hard to get everyone back

dats when a new guild was formed

its not perfect

because

i can see reina was frustrated bout this incident

how she always tell me she wana quit maple

how she became so depressed and i dont know wat to do

but im glad

everything should be back to normal now

with new members getting into our maple lives

how we get to know each other more

how we gossiped so much

how we gave each other nicknames

how i always end up telling grandma stories

its fun, i don't deny

because now, to me

maple is a way for me to release off my frustration

for me to get away from da stressful life

i want this to continue

maple friendship, virtual friendship to carry on

because we are not afraid of being ourselves

to my family
i was so afraid of losing this family
i really am
how i hope my parents and siblings can be with me forever
i love da times
when we would just sit down and chat
how my bro always make my parents laugh with his stupid words
how my parents always look forward to seeing my bro at home
how i always look forward to tell him things
how my dad doesn't mind fetching me and my bro home
how my parents are still so loving
seeing them laughing at each other jokes
seeing them still chatting late at night
seeing them making an effort to make this a perfect home
and my 2 retarded brothers
they might be retarded
but sometimes they do make me happy
how my 2nd bro always allow me to use da com even though he only used it for a short time
how my 2nd bro always say stupid things and singing songs out of da random
how my 2nd bro accompany to do things which i dont dare to do
how my big bro always come to our room and start fighting with my 2nd bro
how my big bro always buy things for us
how me and 2nd bro laughed at big bro's lousy typing
how we 3 watched tv in our small small room
we belong to da same family
a family that i love so much
i wana do things for this family
i wana cook for my parents
i wana take care of my parents
i wana treat them like how they treat me
=]

to u

u might not know who u are

but i just wana say thank u

thanks for chatting with me

when im really bored

thanks for helping me out

when i need help

thanks for tolerating my stupidity

thanks for bringing a smile to my face

i wana say sorry too

sorry for being so cold to u at times

because i cant bring myself to step out

forgive me

i need time to sort out my feelings

i hope u will still be dere

just for me

gosh im getting emo

i hope 2008

would be a happy year for everyone of us

everyone would stay healthy and positive

and im sure

it would be a better year

cheers!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

♥Siew came & went off @[[__10:04 AM__]]

i wont let go of any friendship

i mean it

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

♥Siew came & went off @[[__5:16 AM__]]

friends don't drift apart,
or do they?
obviously i know the answer,
but i refused to acknowledge it
because i remember what we once said
we will be friends till we are old
and our children will be besties too
and i really treasure this friendship
because you are my rubbish bin
you are the only one i can tell so many things to
i remember how my hp is always full of your sms
i remember how crappy we always are
how we can always laugh so much even if its just the both of us
how we support each other whenever one is down
i know you are busy
and i forgive you for that
but sometimes you are so busy
i feel like i'm bothering you
i don't mind you meeting him
cause i know both of you hardly meet
but
if one day
i stop sms-ing you
its because
i don't know how to approach you anymore
and i hope that will never ever happen

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

♥Siew came & went off @[[__10:33 AM__]]

im a NERD

im gona disappear and start mugging for my tests.
wahahahhaah
hmm
after the common tests,
it would be projects-drowning time.
GAWD.
gona disappear from maple too.
take care xUnDefined
i will pop in when time allows.
hahahha
muacks xUnDefined. x3
and to laopo
u are misssssssssed.
meet for dinner sometime
i wana gossip with you
and dont ask doggy along
i wan a girls talk.
LOL
bye~