i miss my brother.
yes,
he's in the army now.
i went to send him off to pulau tekong ytd with my mum.
a pity my dad cant make it at the last min.
the trip to pulau tekong was silent.
guess my bro was nervous.
my mum and i were feeling a little reluctant too.
reluctant to see my bro enlisting into da army.
when we were at tekong.
bro was separated from us for awhile.
da next time we could see him was during the oath taking ceremony and our "last" dinner with him at da cookhouse.
we had to be separated at the ferry terminal.
i was feeling very sad to see him leave.
my mum too.
i could see she was still worried about him when we were leaving, on the boat and on the bus.
i cried.
on the boat and on my dad's bus.
i feel so weird without him by my side.
chatting with me and even quarelling with me.
now i really dont mind him criticsing me.
as long as he's dere to talk to me.
today,
the house is so quiet.
i was alone in my room.
and i was sleeping alone ytd night too.
i just dont like the feeling of being alone.
i know he would be back again.
but its only on the 27th.
its very long to me.
and by the time he's out from army,
im going into the work society soon.
i know someone might say.
ur bro's only going to army not overseas.
but, u wont know the feeling of how i felt.
because u dont have a big bro who's already in the army.
u wont know the feeling of losing a companion at home.
u wont know the feeling of not having someone to talk to and to quarrel to.
u wont know the feeling of being alone after getting used to have someone by ur side.
i went through this twice.
once for my big bro and da other for my 2nd bro.
but this time, the feeling was worse.
because im much closer to my 2nd bro.
everytime i see the empty bed dat's beside me.
i just wont stop crying.
i really miss him.
i hope 27th would come soon.
so that i can talk to him once again.
and once again.
im crying while im typing this entry.
because i really miss him alot.
i wonder how's he doing right now.
(: